A Journey of Grace: Heroic Life

A Herioc Life

It has been almost 3 weeks since I have typed out any sort of feelings or happenings on my blog.

I guess I would say that my heart and brain are so full of "things" going on that I do not even know what or how to write.

The Lord has been at work.

He is at work in my heart, my marriage, my mothering, my friendships, my mind and my spirit.
He is stirring up things....emotions, making me uneasy at times as He opens closets in my heart that have been closed for a long time.

I keep them closed for a reason. Mostly because I am scared of the mess and chaos I will find if they are opened. And that is what is happening.

When I was in Texas last week for a MOPS Convention, Erwin McManus spoke some pretty powerful things.

1.My fears are the boundary of my freedom, for what I fear becomes my master.

2. When I fear nothing but God, He establishes the boundary of my freedom.

3. What dreams are waiting on the other side of my fear?

4. God calls me even in the darkness.

And so I must ask myself...what fears are limiting my life?

The first fear that quickly pops up in my mind is the fear of failure.

Failing myself, my family, my friends and my community.
"God, I know I can't do that...don't set me up for failure."

"Why should I even try, I know it wont be good enough."

"That is great for you...but I don't have it in me."

and the excuses that flow from my mouth could go on and on....

The world desperately needs me to live my most heroic life...but I don't because I am afraid that it will not meet their expectations, or mine.

Oh how I desire the heroic life.

I would be a writer.

A speaker.

I would share the message of Jesus Christ so freely because it is who I am.

I would say "No" to more things that did not line up to God's call for my life.

I would say "Yes" to the things that do, without fear of failure or how it will all work out.

I would listen more and talk less.

I would pray more diligently for my family and friends, give more to the needy, take in those who need shelter, love others without wanting something in return...

I would........................................................................

“For consider your calling, Amber: not many of you were wise according to worldly standards, not many were powerful, not many were of noble birth. But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, so that no human being might boast in the presence of God. And because of him you are in Christ Jesus, who became to us wisdom from God, righteousness and sanctification and redemption, so that, as it is written, “Let the one who boasts, boast in the Lord.”” (1 Corinthians 1:26-31, ESV).

To live the heroic life is to live completely dependant on God's grace in my weaknesses.

When I ask Christ for His strength, He gives me His spirit to do them in love and through Christ, and I no longer fail. I have victory through Christ's power in me. I can live the heroic life, I can stand on God's dreams for me.

God is good.

Here are a couple pictures of my Adalin Rose two years ago tomorrow.

Seems like just yesterday she was born!

Happy Birthday my sweet Rosebud!!!