Monday, November 24, 2008

Thank you God:
100 things I am thankful for...
1. Salvation through Jesus Christ
2. Christ dying on the cross for me
3. My loving and kind husband
4. My sweet Adalin Rose
5. My sweet Olivianna Grace
6. Joy in my heart
7. Peace in my relationships
8. The living word of God
9. Grace
10. Good health
11. Luke and Adalin’s good health
12. Marriage
13. children
14. Adi’s fun and energetic personality
15. Luke and my relationship. That we are best friends
16. Intimacy in marriage
17. Shelter: a nice looken roof over my head!
18. God’s provisions in all things
19. Prayer: communication with God almighty
20. That God uses me
21. My husbands job
22. The privilege to stay at home
23. MOPS (Mothers of preschoolers)
24. The privilege to lead BVG MOPS
25. The people at Big Valley Grace church
26. My family (their love for me and how they raised me)
27. Luke’s family (who they are and what they do)
28. My parents strong and loving relationship
29. That my sisters and I are such good friends
30. Luke’s parents strong and loving relationship
31. Amazing friends
32. An amazing church
33. The command to love and serve others
34. Celebrate recovery
35. For other peoples kindness
36. Dr. Altman
37. Lori-Cae Reese

38. Christine Curry- for her selflessness to serve me during hard times
39. The ability to go out of the house without fear
40. The ability to drive and get from point a to b
41. An education
42. The ability to learn
43. The ability to teach
44. My husbands romantic side
45. Family that loves Jesus
46. The ability to see, hear, taste, touch and smell
47. Food in the pantry
48. Clothes for Adi
49. Clothes for Luke and I
50. Passion that comes from Cod
51. Photography
52. My camera
53. My computer
54. craigslist
55. The ability to dance
56. The opportunity to teach dance at Enslen
57. Fresh flowers
58. Christmas time
59. The desire to be thankful
60. Neils Toss salad
61. Good books
62. A desire for creativity
63. Spring and Fall
64. Colorful leaves
65. Ice cream in the freezer
66. electricity
67. My washer and dryer
68. My traveling experiences
69. for my 6 months with YWAM (in Hawaii and Thailand)
70. Coffee
71. toilets
72. Running water
73. Laughter
74. The cool opportunities that God has given me in life
75. The internet
76. Mint ice cream mixed with coffee ice cream and a little milk!!!
77. Sewing
78. Freedom in our counrty
79. Our new painted house and the amazing couple that blessed us with it
80. The ability to drive to SF or Yosemite and back in one day
81. Medical technology
82. Ultrasounds in particular
83. Thrift stores
84. Amazing garage sale finds
85. heat/air conditioning
86. A comfy bed to sleep in each night
87. The ability to be pregnant
88. The ability to walk
89. The ability to swallow
90. That I can go to the store and buy things
91. Safety and protection
92. Toys for Adi
93. That my family enjoys each other
94. People who die to themselves to accomplish Christ’s calling
95. Perspectives class
96. For caring and kind people in the world
97. That God created food to taste good
98. The ability to give to others
99. For tears and the ability to cry and feel
100. I am thankful to God for creating me in His image…for loving me…for saving me…for giving me life abundant in Christ Jesus.

God is good. ALL THE TIME.

Friday, November 21, 2008

I had a very vivid dream last night.

I was pregnant with my third child. A boy. The doctors were unable to tell the whole pregnancy if anything was wrong with him physically. I was going to be induced the next morning. I was afraid and anxious.

Right before I went to sleep (in my dream) I looked down and through my skin I could see my little boy. He was beautiful. He looked up at me and our eyes froze.
Sweet Adalin's voice whispered "mommy" into my ear and I was instantly awake.

All morning I have been wondering how my dream would have continued if I had not been awoken.
Would I have had a healthy baby boy? Or would I have had another child torn from me too soon?


But she looks so perfect....
Trust in Me.
No outward flaw...
Trust in Me.
Why not more time???
Trust in Me.
I can't handle any more...
Trust in Me.

I realize this dream is most likely because of fear issues that I am dealing with. The doctors were not able to determine if Olivianna's condition was genetic or a 1 in 2500 people situation. While Luke and I have been trying to get pregnant again for the last 3 months, the little voice (fear, doubt, hurt) continues to whisper into my soul. I must be on guard at all times to not fall for the lies of Satan. I will not be in bondage to fear. I have been set free because of Christ, and I must walk in His promises for me.

If it was genetic...My God created us and we are fearfully made. He is in control. Genetic disorders don't happen by chance. He chose to create Olivianna that way and says that she is wonderfully made. He loves her just as much as He loves His children who are physically healthy.
If it was 1 in 2500....My God chose me! WOW, if you look at all situations in life as the opportunity to be used for God's glory, than I thank him for the 1 in 2500 chance TO BRING HIM GLORY. It is God's will for me to do this.

Whatever happens, give thanks, because it is God's will in Christ Jesus that you do this. (1 Thes. 5:18)

I want to wake up each morning and say "God, I allow YOU to write my story today? Please help me to be obedient to your plan. Help me to TRUST in your goodness and promises. "

This can be so difficult to do as my flesh gets in the way so often. But if I acknowledge to Him my desire for that, and continue in intimacy with Him, His spirit will strengthen me and help me.

I have been thinking lately of all the things to be thankful for in my life. Thanksgiving is something that we are called to do daily, not just on the last Thursday of November each year.

In the next couple days, I will write a "My thank you God" list: 100 Things I am thankful for.
What are you thankful for?
I pray that anyone reading this will remember to stop each day and give thanks to God for His blessings.
We truly are a blessed people.

Christ be lifted high!

Haven't had (or maybe "made") much time to post in the last 3 weeks!
I have been keeping busy taking pictures :)
Check them out on my photo blog (a grover picture...on the side bar)

The family playing around one night....

John 16:33
These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world